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A Letter To 16 Year Old Me

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Me, aged 16 - NYE Amy, You are now 16. You think that you have your life planned out. Hear me now -  you don't. A ton of shit is coming your way  and at that moment you are going to think that you will not be able to deal with it. Before pain and suffering capture your good heart, I hope you know that even when you’re pushed to the very edge of defeat, everything will be okay.  Stop trying to have control over everything in your life.  Stop being the adult. You will grow up very quickly and you will wish that you could have your teen years back again. When Dad and Sonia are strict with you  - don't have a go at them. Don't scream at them and tell them they can't stop you spending the night out... They aren't doing this because they want to control you. They are doing it because they care about you and want you to have a bright future. They are doing it because they know that you don't have much structure at home and they want to be the consistenc

The Reality of Cancer

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I've been very quiet on the blog front for a long time. Firstly because I've had no time what with juggling two jobs, a social life, time with my family... Secondly because I just haven't known what to blog about. Today, however, I have taken the day off work on 'Compassionate Leave' to care for my Granny. For those of you who don't know - Granny was diagnosed with Lung Cancer in April/May time. It has been a horrible few months... Times in hospital, lots of tests, lots of Morphine, a week or so spent in Willen Hospice . During her time at the Hospice, I took her for an appointment with the oncologist (Cancer Doctor). He had decided that there would be no more treatment. The reason given was 'The quality of life was now more important than the quantity of life'. This broke me. It meant that they'd given up on the cancer. They weren't going to make her better. She wasn't going to get better.  Her 'quality of life' was more impor